Self isolated and unmotivated

Hello, hi, what's up, blah blah blah.

I am bored.

And I mean, who isn't right now? The whole world collectively is bored. Or at least 50% bored, the other 50 anxious, worried and annoyed.

Two, nearly three months ago I moved all the way to the UK to start my masters degree in journalism. And it was one of the biggest and most nerve-wracking decisions I have ever made in my short twenty something life so far.

Coming here, I was both apprehensive and excited. Worried about being able to adapt, studying again, living alone for the first time, and all those versions. And excited about finally coming to the UK after dreaming about it for so long, nearly 10 years! (how old am I omg).

Two month in here I am stuck in a small room, classes are cancelled, deadlines extended and no way to leave the house or do any 'outside' activities for the foreseeable future.

Which pretty much means no motivation to leave my bed, and going crazy having nothing to do when I do leave it.

For the first 10 days I did nothing but sleep pretty much, I would wake up, stay in bed, get out as late as possible, eat, laze around, and then get back in again, it was sad to say the least.

And then for the next ten days I pretty much did the same except I would wake up, get my laptop and  watch Netflix until I die of boredom or my eyes tell me its time to go to bed.

I worked for two days in total and I hated every second of it. I just cannot for the life of me find the motivation to do anything.

Before coming here, I told myself that I will utilize all this alone time, I will get back to reading more and writing more. I will hopefully be more productive and active in my day to day life, but the truth is I have so far done the exact opposite.

I am not really a creature of habit, or maybe I am I have no idea.

But the thing I discovered this past year since graduating is that I am no longer okay with spending all day long doing nothing, I now need to occupy my time with something or else I go crazy. And with having zero motivation or desire to do things I dearly love(d) such as writing and reading, it has been really boring.

Which brings me to where I am right now, self isolated and bored out of my mind with lots of time on my hands.

Three weeks ago all I wanted was for spring break to come around so I could have a rest and clear my mind of  teaching sessions and actually having the time do some work on my final papers. Fast forward to now, I have no motivation to work on said papers, and I don't even want to.

I am not freaking out about the whole thing, I am not even optimistic or pessimistic like I usually am, I am just confused. Like every other person on the planet, I feel thrown off my feet.

My life which I am already struggling to plan ahead has just become even more uncertain and unpredictable, I have no idea what's going to happen a week from now let alone a month, two or three.

And so here I am, writing about how bored and unmotivated I am lol.

Consider it a very sad life update if you will.